I'm nothing I thought I was and nothing I want to be.

So I've had a LOT of things going on these last few day.

To recap my Thursday, Friday, and Saturday for you I had robotics. I do FIRST robotics (FRC league) Its a huge! program. (http://www.usfirst.org/) There are teams from not only all across the US but from all over the world. Every year we get a game and have to design a robot to the game. This years game can be seen here (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnGfbGzEFrM). This years game is called Lunacy. I should also mention that the team I am part of is called the Firebirds team 433. Here is a link to our website that we put up this year. I did the header :) (http://web.me.com/msjafirebirds/Firebirds_433/Home.html)

Now that I've done that little summary I'll tell you about the 3 days. The first day is practice. I wanted to be first driver SOO bad! I practiced in the first round. I sorta had odds against me. I was the only team on my alliance and had two other robots coming after me. I also had 3 human players targeted on me. Also, before the match we were A. fixing the robot B. had to go get a sticker that said we could have robot on the field and C. change the battery about 15 seconds BEFORE the match started. So yeah and then i was like stressed out and i couldnt hear the robots wheels if they were spinning or not. I did so badly i was like grrr. The other girl did better. Which bugged me because she can kind of get an attitude especially towards one of the teams. But its all okay.

The second day i found out my one friend was going there so i found him. Turns out his school wants to start a robotics team. So i got him and his friend and one of the teachers in charge to come talk to our teams mentors. I did something important!!!! And we may help them out for starting their team. :D! yeah me! The matches on this day were official by the way and counted. We won 3 and lost 3. We had a few glitches with the robot but everything was fine.

Finally. The last day. The first half of the day is some final matches and then after lunch was finals. We had a skybox where we were and had girl scouts come and look at things and play with mini robots. This was all in hopes of getting Chairmans. So lunch time they chose alliances. We didnt make it :/ We were bummed. Then at around 2 there was a team meeting. We welcomed DEAN KAMEN! into the building!! Now you may not know who he is. He is like the god of FIRST. He is cofounder. He also created the segway. (those people mover things). I got a pair of safety goggles signed :) So then we hung around for awards. We didn't get any of the first ones. Finally they got to chairmans.... We are got quiet. We tensed and held hands. They began their speech. When they give out awards they give hints as to who has wont he award. They started saying stuff and we start silently squealing they say things that are about us! Finally they say FIREBIRDS TEAM 433!! we burst out SCREAMING! We all run down the the field and get out medal and are so ECSTATIC! Not only is this FIRST's most prestigious award. Its also our ticket to nationals in Atlanta! Last year we won a different award and were able to go. FIRST is just amazing. Its better than any sporting event!

p.s. this was a video our one mentor took of them announcing chairmans enjoy! :D (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jCMA1wZOFOU)

I think this is my rant about some of the best 3 days. My team also held a team social on Friday night. I met some really cool people this year. Unfortunately 2 out of 3 the cool people are seniors this year and i wont see them next year :/

Also on Thursday night i went and saw La Salle's show How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying. Its one of my FAVORITE shows. My cousins school did it a few years ago and i forced my music class to watch the movie last year haha. The show was amazing and i loved seeing my friends in it. I also went Saturday night.

Soooo some more little news. I have a boyfriend now :) as of last Monday. I havent told my parents but oh well. He also did stage crew for the show so thats how i got to see him this weekend haha. So yeah my life is pretty exciting and crazyyyy right now.

Talk to you all soon!!

WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAHHH!!!!!!




excuse my language FUCKK! YEAHH!!!!!

So in 11 days i am turning 16! yes! big news right? well i've been bugging my parents for awhile to buy me a REALLY nice camera. not on of my fashionable "omg i can take pictures one" a real nice black professional looking one *drools* well here is the problem... what one should i get?¿ which brand is best? what model? I DONT KNOW! i want something that will be really good at taking macro shots (yes i know other lens will have to be bought possibly) but besides that i have NOOO idea! HELP! pleaseee

I have the new escape the fate cd! i came home went on buzz and was like AHHH I FORGOT! and ran and asked my mom to take me out. I got it at target for 10$!!! and there were only 3 YES THREE! left! :D it made my life.



I kinda miss the old escape the fate. they are a lot lighter in their sound but still very enjoyable. im REALLY hoping to see them november 6th (aka two days before my 16th bday!!) that would be a fantastic gift :)


and! side note i FINALLY got this video game ive been dying for

I saw the greatest thing when i logged onto buzznet today... this

I was just scanning the home page and was like wait... i know that picture *reads* *heart stops* NO!!! *doesnt believe* I went into this huge spazz and imed all my friends (i acutally even called one XD) I read my write up which was really nice and all the lovely comments people had left :-D it totally made my day. Buzznet means sooo much to me these days. I post my photos on my facebook too but my friends there just dont comment the way you guys do. I remember when i first started with buzznet i think it was maybe 7th (or 8th) grade when my friend found it. We would come on and get our pop culture news. My old computer was really slow and it was a bitch to come on but then i got my new laptop! I began coming on almost everyday then and made myself an account. That was at the end of 8th grade. Then at christmas that year i finally got my own digital camera and got down to business. Buzznet has made my photography grow SO much. I look for small things ,lighting, angles, and textures these days in everything around me. I remember when i got my first featured photo i about died happy (i have a screen shot from that too haha) see!

It means so much to me to see people appreciating my pictures. I can't tell you guys enough. I love coming online and having 4 new notes 3 new comments a friend request and maybe a message. I let out an uggg because i have to go through it all but i enjoy every moment of it.

So once again...

THANK YOU ALL!!

p.s. this journal was written because 1. i had so much to say and 2. my homework kept me from taking a witty OG photo today (tomorrow my friends i try to take one!)

so ive been missing for about 5 days now. its not my fault!!!! my mom took my laptop. which 1. is home to all my pictures and 2. really fast. i used another computer for aim but it was soooo slow on here. she made me miss the buzznet assignment last week :( i was majorly sad. so im back! REJOICE!

This summer i got my first job. (thanks to my best friend) Her sisters worked at this dry cleaners and are now going to collage. THey were looking for some new people so i got a spot. I do counter work which involves me taking people clothes, giving them back, and putting hangers away (and the similar). Its a pretty easy job but some of it is SO annoying. Drop offs will kill me especially laundry shirts. I always have issues checking to make sure its the right fabric and stuff. So this is why i am writing this journal. I've decided to share my dry cleaner stories with all of you. Ill tell you a few right now (i've only work about 6 or 7 days)

One day this lady came in. She has a skinny lady who was very brand name. She had her Abercrombie and Hollister clothes and her little hands free set in her ear. At this point i was in training and this other girl Katie was helping me. The lady put a pair of pants down and then she pointed to the crotch and said that she had gotten some *cough* blood on her pants and was hoping we could get it. Let me say it was just plain awkward to me. Its like thank you for telling me about your menstrual cycle.

Another story i have is another one from when i was in training. This time Debbie was helping me. This lady came in with a pair of navy blue pants. She told us that there were some white spots on the pants from the last time and she pointed them out. She then went on to tell us how she thought maybe it was just powdered sugar or something but it didn't brush off. Next she asked us if we though crack would do this to the pants. YES you read that right. She asked if WE! two teenagers knew if CRACK did that to her pants. She implied that the workers had a part in it. We (Debbie and I) were just like "umm we have no idea." So we let her get the pants redone.

Seriously some weird people come in sometimes. Its all interesting. More stories soon. :-D

My mom is really! starting to get on my case about my summer reading books. one of the most dreaded things ever (at least in my mind). Ive been wondering alot lately with people talking of schools here how everyone's works. i know the system if different in europe (i have cousin there). For me i got back to school in the beginning of September. Then i have a break at Christmas (usually a long one since ive always gone to Catholic school) then spring break/ Easter break. Then i am out for the summer around the beginning of June. How does everyone else's systems work??

So i think the orange fret on GH is just there to be evil. I have a few reasons why

1. its mocks those with small hands
2. it makes people believe that there are only 5 strings on a guitar
3. it wants to give us all carpal tunnel
4. they want us to fail songs!

any other ideas?

well... its EVIL!!

My parents don't want me going to Warped. I am just about devastated. I have been waiting a whole year for this and my friend and i bought tickets on pre-sale. Since they won't listen to me i am reaching out to friends and bands to tell my parents i should go! i have paid for my own ticket and everything. i REALLY want to go. Offer some support? please...

My friend wrote this poem thing and I thought it was just amazing. So I asked him if I could post is here for people to read. So here it is. Read and enjoy :-D

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The reason it sounds so weird is because there is a bunch of band names that make up the body of the poem.

please criticize constructively.


Between the Buried and Me

This is my Backseat Goodbye.
mewithoutYou.

This Hot Water Music is giving me Audio Adrenaline
There are NoFX, it’s all real.
Your Bright Eyes Brighten’d my life,
Making any time A Day to Remember.

A Fire’s Inside
We’re All That Remains
You and I, Between the Trees
Listening to the Sounds of Animals Fighting

And the Citizens Cope
As Gavin Dances

I wish we could stay on this Chariot, as The Cars pass us by,
And listen to the Soundtrack of the City’s Motion.

You were my Dear in the Headlights,
And now you're with The Devil Wearing Prada

Those Dead Poetics can’t help anymore.
There used to be Explosions in the Sky,
But these Ashes came from Autumn.
Now I have to Give up the Ghost to the Grateful Dead

You were my Trophy
But this Trophy Left Scars

I’m at a Funeral for a Friend
I went From First to Last,
I feel like a Foreigner.
The Misfit,
Without your love.

Then,
I hear a Hush Sound,
And feel a Hot Cross on my chest.
I turn and see my sweet Norma Jean.
You were as beautiful as The Offspring of Steely Dan and his Iron Maiden.
The sight of you brought me to Nirvana
I feel Brand New.
This is me Smiling.
I feel simply Sublime!
Like The Tallest Man in the World!

And now, I know,
Every Time I Die, I will see you again.


End.

so my mom finally made an appointment to get my hair cut. i am trying to grow it out a little but i still like have a ton of layers. here is the good part. SHE SAYS I CAN DYE IT! here is the bad part she doesnt want me bleaching my hair... sooo. any ideas? you can look at the pictures of me to know what i look. i want something that doesnt need to be overly taken care of since i swim all the time. (p.s. i really dont like side bangs on me they look weird.) by the way i need to have my idea by tomorrow afternoon. EEP!

Hey people,

I am going to be down in Disney World till Friday so if you comment or drop me a note dont be offended if i don't get back to you. Its my school's freshman trip, but we still have to pay for the thing blehh. I'll take lots of pictures (duh) and post them when i get back. The heat is going to kill me. I am going to miss my computer for 5 days... I have attachment issues. Bye!


- Tizzy

My Mom just asked my for my Facebook, Myspace, and Buzznet passwords. I said i would not give them to her and she said "Uh, yes you will or i will shut them down." I said you can't do that. She retorted by saying that she would. She already goes on my facebook and buzznet because i leave myself signed in and saved on my wed browser. Its really aggravating thats she does this. I have certain things set on sites so only certain people can see stuff. My mom says that its a public website and any one can see anything. Okay, I see her point here but I make sure not to put up stuff that I would be embarrassed of. So here's my question to you people. What do you think about this? Should I give my mom my passwords? Should I stand my ground? Do you have the same problem? Or if you can think of anything else to add express it. I just know I am pretty annoyed.

Thanks
- Tizzy

I convinced my friends to come see the new Narnia movie with me yesterday. I have been raving about this movie and waiting since the last one. Let me say this movie was the BOMB!! They switched some of the stuff around and made it a little different, but i can understand why they changed it. They kept to the main story plot which was good. I pointed out to my friend at one point "See how good this movie is? And its only PG!" They took out blood and guts and gave us a great movie. Also, the creatures in Narnia are SOOO much better than the ones in Harry Potter. The animation in this is to DIE for. I HIGHLY recommend going and seeing The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. It was reallllly good and worth every dollar.

p.s. I swooned over King Peter the whole movie. He is GORGEOUS!

Just becuase i said i thought you were hot,
didn't mean i liked you.
Just becuase i said i liked you,
didn't mean i wanted to date you.
Just because i dated you,
didn't mean i wanted to fuck you.

- Tizzy



i wrote this today. its just about all i can come up with.

I was surfing the internet when i came apon a story about Ronnie Radke and battery charges. I was shocked by what I read. See what you think

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Escape The Fate singer Ronnie Radke pleaded guilty to a charge of battery with substantial bodily harm at a court hearing on January 15.

The singer, who has subsequently been fired from the Las Vegas-based punk band, was also sentenced to five years' probation as well as being ordered to pay nearly $100,000 in damages in relation to the death of 18-year-old Michael Cook on May 6 2006.

According to police reports, Radke's former friend Marcel Colquitt challenged him to a one-on-one fist fight at a secluded stretch of desert near to their Las Vegas home after Radke refered to Colquitt's girlfriend as "a crack whore".

Radke brought along three additional people and Colquitt brought along four. Both sides were armed with knuckle-dusters and baseball bats. A firearm was also involved in the altercation.

The incident ended when Radke's friend, Chase Rader, shot and wound Colquitt's brother and killed Cook.

"I don't think probation is good enough for him," said Cook's mother, Ceda Freeman. "He has absolutely destroyed my family."

Colquitt, who was due to appear as Radke's co-defendant in the case, committed suicide in September 2007.



(link: http://www2.kerrang.com/2008/01/escape_the_fate_singer_escapes.html)

At the moment i have come up with three fashion trends that i can not stand and here they are

1. Flats.

I cant not stand these. They are pointless except for fashion and i think they are ugly. Most of them have these little bows on them that should only be seen in a 3 year olds hair. They also dont have soles. They are so tiny i am surprised that people dont need a new pair every week.

2. Bubble Bangs.
Can I please pop those with a bubble? Either you have bangs or you dont. You can just put them up like that. They make a person's head look bigger and they should just fall down. How much hair spray and such do you need to keep those like that any way?

3. Wangster Skater Hats
These hats piss me off. Its like okay choose! skater or wangster. You may not be both. They look foolish 99% of the time and are just wangster. While talking about wangster skaters and the like. If you are going to wear skinny jeans dont show your boxers! Its not ment to be skinny jeans = keep your pants up (put your stud belt to use) and baggy jeans = allowed to fall if desired. Either way wangster + skater = disaster.

These are my opinions. If you dont them thats cool thats you. I think these things should just disapear and be seen as history. Leave comments if desired.

Today the Umbrella Academy was released. FOR REAL! so now we can read it when ever we want. Ok we have to wait for the next issue but still. I still have to go read it but i am really excited.

Well i finaly have scanner software on my computer SO! i should be able to upload pictures and articles from my kerrang!'s sound good to you people? sounds good to me